Another month ends. Here's what's going on now...

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It's the end of April. We are now closing up another month in favor of the next.

Semester 6 comes to an end. I unfortunately had to drop out of my elementary algebra class as mentioned back on another journal. This year....I gotta admit. This was a huge disappointment to me. The beginning months of 2017 has been quite a disaster all around and it actually makes me wonder if this year is just going to be no less than a carbon copy of 2016. My worries may just prove that it is. I am no delusional conspiracy theorist (I'm looking at you, Alex Jones), but here I am just thinking to myself. I got hit with one disappointment after another, after another, after another, after another, after another, after another. And me complaining about all this to my friends, only made things worse and just shows the toxins within my feelings. But it's not to say that there isn't a few good things that happened. Actually, there is, so far. On top of all that, a lot of dark moments have been happening out there in the real world. Especially in the politics topic, where it has gotten so out of control and so skewed up, it's like....are we entering a new dark era? I don't want to grab onto that for too long, but everything I turn into nowadays, seems to focus on that as it's the hottest thing in the world to discuss on, right now. More specifically, identity politics.

Tomorrow as of this journal being posted right now, is my final day of class for this semester. And afterwards is my finals that I must take. Once that is taken care of, I'll be pretty much free for the summer. Expect I still gotta do driving lessons and hopes that I can master the skills that's needed to pass to get my license. I couldn't pass the first time due to inexperience but hopefully this time around, I'll be able to re-take it in the fall with a workshop. So that, it'd be easier for me to pass. And the reason I had no artwork all last week was because I was doing my fourth and final essay, so I had to put a lot of time and effort into writing it down as well as doing research for the work. I've been doing pretty well with my class aside of dropping out of elementary algebra.

As for what's also happening regarding my grandmother....she suffered a stroke the other week. And it's connected to what happened in January when my neighbor hit her while backing out of her car....I am so worried about her.....I visited her at the hospital earlier this month and this just took a turn of our lives into a different direction. I am just hoping that she'll get the treatment that's needed and praying that she'll be able to get in a decent resting home for her to live in, once she manages to make it out. But when I saw what happened, oh my gosh, I was raging. I was angry. And upset. As of recently, I've been getting more angry and upset a LOT lately. It's like one minute I am glad, the next minute I become a burning flame with anger. And the next minute after that, I suddenly turn into a dying weeping flower of sadness. I-I don't even know what this is, and I am not trying to pass it off as something that is cringeworthy coming from me directly, but it must be some sort of state that we all get into, every now and then. Sure it's not a good idea to self-diagnose with a condition that you don't have, but this seems to be some sort of crazy mystery. It wasn't just for what happened with my grandmother, it's also what happened online when it comes to interaction. A lot of disappointments kept happening and I lost my mind a lot, this month. This month has been absolutely crazy.

I also have gone to the ordeal center and got notified that my wisdom teeth have to come out very soon, as they are now starting to grow in. And it's known that 95% of citizens in the United States have gotten their wisdom teeth pulled sometime in their late teen-early adult lives. Boy, I am feeling so nervous when that day comes. However, the bright side is that once I get them removed, I won't need to worry about my teeth suddenly becoming crooked or in pain.

One thing is for sure that can help keep afloat. I know that I have you guys in support to keep me up and going. And together, we can fight through the bad and bring the good in, once again. It's obvious that I am not alone as there's many out there who look up to me and think about me. And I am thankful, glad and grateful to have people out there willing to be there for me and always willing to show gratitude and generosity. We'll fight to the end! We're not finished just yet!

See you guys in May!

- Blue
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MVGaea's avatar
That stinks about your grandma having a stroke, especially several months after what happened. Hope she gets better.

Hope you get through your finals and the driving practice.

Anyway, hope you are well otherwise. My note box is always open too if you need to chitchat or something. ^_^